tw: self harm, suicidal ideation, cutting only read if you have the spoons/emotional energy to do so.  i love you and want you to be okay. i was satisfied with my care. he was an excellent nurse. he was diligent… Continue reading

hi again dad, in all the grief books given to me at age 9 in the wake of your loss, dad, none of them mentioned how i will walk a tightrope with codependency with the male gender. sometimes even the… Continue reading

hey there jug. i danced with our old friend, suicidal ideation, sunday night. i hadn’t danced with it since probably May 2018. i can’t narrow down the trigger to a certain thing, but i had total agony living in my… Continue reading

I wrote the following after a 25min phone call with Bond. “My path to wellness has been like learning to walk as a child. I started realizing there’s a world around me. I started pulling myself up, supporting my body,… Continue reading

ay daddio- been forever since we last caught up. that is my bad. i got a huge promotion at work. you are now talking to the assistant customer service manager. i am transforming every single day into someone i want… Continue reading

heyo daddio- i made a promise to myself that i would stop bringing up G right around my 23rd birthday. that i would be completely healed from him and his toxic jersey waste. it is december 1st 2018. it is… Continue reading

this comes from a journal entry from october 29th, 2018. i am sharing here because it is all apart of the process. i am just going to write what i wrote without editing it. this is a content warning. i… Continue reading